6 years.
i went through old pictures of myself and realise how much heartache i was in when we were apart. i would love to think that im a fool to feel that way about you and think how silly i was to get into that kinda turmoil.
i spent….
3years crying myself to sleep EVERY SINGLY NIGHT.
almost 2years to put a smile on my face. an another 2years to laugh from my heart.
4years being an impossible prick
5 years to pluck up enough courage to face reality.
its the 6th year now. i need to hate you in order to function “normally”. its scary how i fell that hard for you. you brought out the best and worst out of me. its definitely time to stop being too masochistic and inflict that kinda pain to myself over and over again.
just like that. you have lose me forever. congratulations.